ed

hey there!!

how are you tonight?

saw that you called. yes, i want to work in the ed. but, honey, if you remember, i said i always wanted to work in the ed...remember????

we just got on this topic of dogs...

and do you remember i said, i wanted to stay here? i felt like you kept push me away.. well at least thats what it felt like..

i like dogs. but, their just an interest of mine..hollie is a family member.(shes more like my kid) she just cant speak out loud awhole lot. and i read alot about dogs. but, i still like medicine. remember? when i said i wanted to be a physician since i was 8? remember?

i kept trying to tell you this but, i dont think i got though very well.

another note..

saw that article about adult spring break.. now that sounds nice!! man, would i like a spring break right about now.. it would be nice.. sounds nice doesnt it?

maybe some time soon or something like that..

so, you have marriage on your mind..well. that one is a surprise..

so now that you know what iam going to do-- now what?

you know i dont have to have my own apartment... not really... i just didnt know what your after...

but, i understand you want me to move out and all that. truly i do...

well my dear.. thats all that i have for tonight..

i hope this clears some confusion up.

good night.

stay warm

i agree.. i dont want to fight and share your boundaries. maybe when we get a house itll be easier.. than that way, nether one of us has to give up anything

pardon me,.. do we have a relationship anniversary? just wanted to know? how do you feel about that? well, how i felt about that...well. there nice.. and thoughtful.. and a surprise.. honestly, i dont think i ever had one. one relationship i had one. it was old boyfiend long time ago-- he remembered. put it in my address book.

how would you defined our relationship? or what would you call this? i mean, is this a long distance relationship? is this a relationship? what is this? just wondering..

i tell people at work --when they ask.. (rather when their nosy) i have someone..i just dont see him right now--its complicated thats all they need to know..

let me explain.. i love you and want to be with you. there are problems on my side (money,moving out etc etc etc) but, i know eventully it will happen.. :)well be together!!

where do you want to go on our honeymoon? any ideas? i was thinking somewhere topical.. somewhere warm and cozy.. where the people are nice.

lets go to paris one day!! i was just looking at the article --best places to have an affair..(what are you trying to tell me?) i would love to go to paris one day.. it looks nice!! paris/london? make it a trip? sounds good to me!!!

honey,, what kind of ring do you want??? i been looking and i been wondering...

i saw some vera wang dresses that i liked.. maybe

well honey.. iam going to bed.

i cant keep my eyes open anylonger..

good night..

thought for the moment

hey there!!

iam dreaming about you again!! sorry i dont remember the details.. but this is a good sign!! when ever i dream about you, i am working things out. (in my head) its sounds crazy.. but, its seems to work.. so, happy day to you!!

honey, this really is a good sign..

ill talk to you later...

have a nice day at work.. dont work to hard.

stay warm and watch out for black ice..

and i love you too!! i caught that.. :)

ht

hey there!

well, jackie and i spent about an hour talking and catching up. i didnt know shes only 20 or 21. but, her world has come to a halt. poor girl. i hope everything goes smoothly for her soon. (she was engaged and now she isnt..)

how was your day?? i heard that the colts won. didnt see the game. i was working.

met a little kid tonight.. (in a wheelchair) great kid! likes the colts. we talked a little bit..

while i was going to work, i had to put air in my tires, so, i stopped at wawa. met a lab-collie mix... very friendly dog.. the owner didnt have a seat belt for the dog. (i noticed)

well your friendly weather girl says its 30 but, it feels colder than that here in moyock.

how about your area? is it colder?

i dont know about you but, iam tired of this cold weather.. (and of course iam sitting in the coldest part of the house...and that doesnt help either...)

do you think itll snow tues.? i was talking to someone about this today... dont know him but he comes in all the time.. you may know him.. sorry, didnt get a name.. ?
better with faces than names..

well i have class tomorrow. maybe you let me something..

hey there!!

sorry that i havent been to talkative, i really dont have a whole lot to say..

my life isnt as i want it to be. jackie and i were talking about this tonight..

i am stuck at ht..while i like my coworkers(most of them) i wish i was doing something else....patient wise...

and i wish i was studding something else..(the only good thing about going where iam going is human relations course..its like psych 101 but, with a different spin.) but, i like it. its a good read..
its like i wrote it myself..strange.

and i rather not go there at all but, i had to do something..and this is a good step.

and i wish i was living on my own.... i just want my life to be straight just for once..

jackie said everything happens for a reason.. iam not so sure anymore...i just wish i knew what the answer was..

so, there you have it.. sorry jack for not being so talkative..

wedding

hello dear!!

how are you today?

i have been browsing though the bridle pages for about an hour or so. looking at all the rings,dresses,flowers,and everything else. very nice! very nice, indeed!

took a quiz said that i was a classic kind of girl. looked at all the items that were classic-- all very nice..

took another quiz about what kind of ring i wanted --classic again.. iam a traditional kinda gal, here.

i had no idea this is what you wanted. i mean, its hard to figure out what you want from the Internet.. i only have articles and ads to pull from... well,,, the wedding ones were very much a strong signal of what your thinking... let me explain...

i know you give me ones about dogs..and food..but the other ones, i just think, oh, ok that would be nice.. a getaway.. or a hotel stay would be nice.. but, sometimes its hard to say whats on your mind.. you know? but, this time.. dead giveaway.. so, marriage is on your mind these days uh? well. i had no idea this was on your mind so much. like i said..its hard to tell being on the Internet and not seeing you face to face.. so, has it been on your mind for a long time? it has hasnt? well. is that why you been asking me what am i going to do for a profession? (give me a moment here, iam slow on the uptake) i just thought... sorry, jack. i just thought since this was a pique way of meeting(on the internet) that this was weird. being a traditional gal, i wanted to meet in a traditional sense. I am not trying to hurt your feelings. honestly iam not! i just thought this was kinda weird. from the sound of it, i have feelings you thought it was too. now, i know you tried to meet me other wise, but it some how always didnt work out. but, at least, you have me talking to you now. you owe that one to my drs. they were right on target. they usually are.

well my dear.. iam going to go ..its lunch time.. i may stick around to see if you have anything else for me..then i have to go..but, ill see you back here tonight..

are you going to be my sweetheart? for the big day? its only 7 days away...

books

hey there hon!!

i have been studying most of this evening..

i did how even get to watch house tonight. havent seen that show in a long long time.

crazy man, i like how he solves cases though.

its cold outside today.. did it snow your way? it did alittle here, not much.

i was hoping for a snow storm, like last week. so, i didnt have to go into work tomorrow. i hate driving in the cold and wet.

i absolutely love the private beachs article that you picked out of me. i liked all of them (the places--but, my most favorite would have to be Greece

i like the sugar cookies too.

i eat alot of them at work, but, i got to quit doing that.. i put on my coat the other day and it fits but, its a little tight. oh , no... you know what that means..

i applied for a job at sentara today.. doing a little adm work.

iam sorry i didnt say more, iam tired tonight.

how about i write more tomorrow..

reading

hi honey

whats up?

iam not feeling to well tonight, have a sore throat.

do you think itll snow? my weather icon says that its raining ice pellets. humm. no wonder hollie wont go outside.

made it to norfolk today.. the receptionist said (as she was handing me my samples) are you the one who have the issue with shana?(dr speigel adm asst) i ve never met the lady! and when i have called up there the whole 8 years i have been with him --i never get a call back from her! so, i absolutely hate going there and getting samples. i rather figure some other way of getting my medicine. i dont even know the woman. but, i hate going there because of her. so, if i seem over the last couple of days, not like my self, its because i hate going there and dealing with her. and i dont directly deal with her.. i talk to the receptionist... i never see her...so whats her problem? from what i hear, she has a problem with one of the receptionist too.. so, its not me. which is a good thing to know.

so, how are you this evening?

i havent done much more tonight. i really havent felt like it. i liked your articles that youve given me.

the one on happiness. i used to be the happiest person that i knew. well, the only thing that i can say is at least this year is a little better than last year. iam taking something that can get me a better job.

when i actually do get this better job, i like to figure out what i would like to do.
iam going to still stick with biology and chemistry. and try to go full time. and see how i like it from there.

i liked the worst snack food you could eat article. the finding there shocked me. and i liked Doritos! come on- you mean there not a food group? :)
i dont eat that much chips.. now pretzels that was a surprise.. i would have never have guess that one.

well, i hope your still there.

it would be nice to talk to you though

i just read an article about being engaged but,not in love.

well, since i dont know you a whole lot.. i am hoping that this doesnt happen to us. i had hoped that we would get along. even though i havent talked to you (face to face) about anything.. i was hoping we would get along. let me explain.. i think we would be a great couple. if we had the chance to be one.

thanks for giving me tips on how to update my wardrobe..

i appricate that one very very much!!!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! jack if you were here i give you a big kiss!!

i just read your ad about medical school and finanial aid. you knew i was worried about this? so so very very worried about this.. thank you


now i know mj made the list of the worst hottel guest.. i didnt know kidman did..

good night honey ......iam going to bed.

talk to you tomorrow.

items you would like to ask but, rather not

hey there!!

hi honey,

logging on early tonight. got to get up early tomorrow, i have alot of things to do tomorrow. and i am going to try and get them all competed tomorrow.


went over to the college today to try and get some help with my resume. and there was this man from career services helped me for about 2 hours. He made a template for me. and it looks great! very professional. and give me his business card and told me to email him when i am finish. i have that to do,studying,i have to do a trip to norfolk, and general cleaning around the house. lots to do.

i like the articles that you picked out for me. keeping a dinner diary. great idea.
shopping list... iam going to start doing that again, and starting tomorrow, i am going to get on the treadmill(i hate that thing but, i miss working out)

sure there are items that i would like to ask.. but, i was hoping you would tell me one day..

here are a few of the things i can tell you about myself....

i like to dress up (causal)--i have to say this first because... i really prefer comfort.. a t shirt a pair of jeans and Birkenstock are great! thats what i really like. really..(now i know thats probably not what you would want to hear but, this is on a relaxed day not a date) what shoe i would like to try out one day maybe? crocks. navy blue. i hear there very comfortable. thats what i hear.

my favorite alltime organ in the body is the brain. 2nd is the heart. the brain can do so many things, its just an amazing organ. and the heart well, it is too.

my dream car is a suv vovlo. not to big not to small. i like vovlos because there safety cars. you get into a wreak, you can walk away.. i saw one today..mint green was nice..

do i believe this is one person for everyone?? i would like to think so.

do i hope to be doing what i want in the near future? i hope so. iam working on it. right now, i am focusing on today, preparing for tomorrow.

i think these questions you already know.

well my dear..

iam going to go.

good night

sexist resorts? i would like to go to Tahiti.. that would be a great place to go..

i like soy..but, dont like tofu. never had it on the grill though.

meatless dishes are ok with me.. i like beans, lentils and such

dont have a problem with fleas though....thank goodness.. no problem there

now that the snow is going away, maybe now i can get hollie out for a walk.

good for me,good for her..

so, your angry at me.. this is how i take it..

well it hasnt been easy these last couple of years. with next to nothing coming in

trying to disciple your ads, you not saying anything at all i dont know what to think.

iam left thinking what does that mean?????

it would make it alot easier if you would just say something to me vs me trying to figure you out because its not getting any easier.

jack,

thank you for the blog about working in a grocey store.. i have been laughing my head off for the last 1/2 hour.. i hope i havent woken anyone up!! these things are pretty funny!! so true so true!! i can relate so well. you have a way of making me laugh at cetain times dont you? well, sometimes i still wonder what you mean.. but, iam not angry anymore. so go back to sleep. iam going to.

good night honey.

wish i was there.